I hate calculus

I really did expect calculus to be hard. And it is. But I'm a little disappointed. Two weeks ago our instructor told us that we had gotten through the hard stuff and that the rest of the term would be relatively easy. Last week was relatively easy when you compare it to what we had already done. But after today's class and trying to do the assigned homework this evening, I feel thoroughly lost. This class is easily the hardest one I have ever taken. I highly doubt that I will end up with an "A". I might have a hard time even ending up with a "B". It all seems so logical and relatively easy when I'm taking notes on the lecture, but I always seem to leave the practice lab (last hour of class) frustrated or even angry. I had a hard time even wanting to try this week's homework or finishing the lab after I got home. I was able to do a couple of the homework problems and spent about an hour trying to figure out just one of the lab questions that I had left. I can't imagine how horrible Calculus II is going to be. I can't even fathom what I'm going to ever use this crap for. If I at least had some idea of what I'll use it for I might be a little more excited about it. I'm going to be really pissed if I never have to use it.